“I think it’s happening.”
It’s been two months since Chrissy Teigen shared her grief with the world over the tragic loss of her baby, Jack. All this time she revealed her experience in an essay and in a joint interview with her husband John Legend.
Today, Chrissy reflected on the days after Jack’s death, which she described as “brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, [and] mentally painful “in an Instagram post.
“When I grow old and white, I will look back on the last two months as brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, mentally painful bitches for several months,” she wrote. “But I refuse to find humor in both the furious and the toilets.”
“I already see the leaves as orange instead of gray, I realized that the sky is really blue, not black, and the horns on my forced morning walks only put me on my knees half the time.”
“I can climb my stairs, stopping only once or twice instead of each other, and I can get out of the tub alone, as long as I have the promise that John will dry me out.”
“Anyway, the question is, fuuuuuuuuuuck, I think it’s happening се,” she concluded.
Two days ago, Chrissy told her followers that she was quiet on Twitter because she was in a “depression depression hole,” but said she had “so much help.” [her] to improve and [she’ll] will be fixed soon. “
“I feel overwhelmed and all I know is [that that’s] the opposite of the fixed, “she later explained, adding,” I’m in a very dark bubble and I’m not able to express what’s happening and do the best I can. “
Last week, Chrissy shared her gratitude for all the support she received, saying, along with John, “I have thousands of letters written to me. It’s obviously so painful to experience something like being a woman – something that was in your body that you are growing But obviously there is a father involved and the support for both of us was so beautiful. So amazing. “
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