KEELING, Washington – Tampa Bay Flight minor Blake Beavens said "his heart was turned to ashes" when his wife, 1-year-old son and mother-in-law were killed this week.
"My life, as I knew it was ruined," the 24-year-old pitcher wrote Thursday night in an Instagram post, his first public statement since the killings. "The pain that my family and I feel is unbearable and cannot be said in words. I tremble and tremble at the thought of our future without them. ”
Bevens took a trip back to Southern Virginia when he learned of the tragedy on Tuesday. He was accompanied by the manager of the Montgomery Morgan Ensberg biscuits.
"It was awful," says Ensberg. "Blake is an incredibly strong man. He is an incredibly strong man and went through only one rotation of tearing, then he would shake and then he would just stare.
"I didn't let it look."
"You don't want this for any community, every family," said Pittsburgh County Sheriff Mike Taylor. "We are a small community.
Bevens published a series of photographs of his wife, Emily, 14-month-old son Cullen and mother-in-law, Joan Bernard.
"Emily, my dear, you are the best wife and mother this world has ever seen," he writes. "You made me the man I am today and loved me with all my faults. You brought our dear boy to this world and made our family complete. Your love and kindness have changed countless lives, including mine. "
To Cullen Beavens it says," I can't breathe without you here "and" I finally understood what love was like when you were born and would do anything for you. "
Court documents released Thursday revealed new details in the killings but did not explain what could have caused 18-year-old Matthew Bernard to kill his sister, nephew and mother.
In Montgomery, biscuits – a Tampa Bay Double Beam Branch – painted "BIV" on the ground behind the home plate before a game against Pensacola. They had to withhold a moment of silence before the match, with another planned before the home race against the Indians in Cleveland.
"Nobody thinks about baseball," says Ensberg.
Pitching Coach at Montgomery R.C. Liechtenstein remembers previous times when Bevens would go to see his wife and hold Cullen.
Biscuit pitcher Ryan Thompson said the Bevens family meant "all the time."
"His family was all about him," said emotionally Thompson, who described Beavens as a close friend with a "funny" sense of humor.
"He never lets the game interfere with one who is like a human. He is such a great person, and such a thing could not have happened to a better human being, "Thompson said.
According to a complaint filed against Bernard, the teen's attacker began at a neighbor's home on Tuesday morning.
Then the neighbor heard guns in the next house, police said. The neighbor went to the house and found the corpse of a woman on the alley. She found the other two bodies inside.
found two victims with gunshot wounds to the head and shotgun shells
In the wooded area behind the house a rifle was found and he was bleeding with blood
The criminal complaint did not offer any motive for the killings and the authorities refused to comment.
up to 100 officers to Keeling, a small community near the North Carolina border.
Bernard came out naked from the woods about four hours later, passing TV cameras to a church parking lot where he was recorded trying to strangle a church owner. Bernard punched his head in a cell in a police vehicle after being arrested and taken to hospital for treatment, ID. He was released and was held in jail Thursday, where he was held without bail and remanded in custody for suicide, police said.
A "Feast of Life" service for slain family members is scheduled for Saturday.
A vigil was held at The River Church in Danville, Virginia, Wednesday evening. Senior Pastor Jackie Paw led the congregation in prayer for the Bevens and Bernard families.
Avery Stevens, pastor of Keeling Baptist Church, said he was in his office, where he also worked as an insurance agent when he saw the television coverage of the Bernard shooting near his church.
"It's a small rural community, quite quiet most of the time like most small, rural communities. But the fact is that it can happen anywhere, right on the threshold, ”he said.
"Pray for the family," he said. "I pray for the community. I pray for healing. ”