"I almost lost my life," he said.
On Thursday, the 31-year-old Williams spoke in public for the first time since the end of last season. In recent months, he had instructed loved ones not to speak on his behalf, leaving only vague assumptions that he was unhappy with his medical diagnosis and had a "fear for health."
When he finally spoke, he told a far more serious story of cancer crawling in his skull, and the fear that he might die opened a huge gap between the most respected Redskins player and the doctors and senior management of the team, can't seem to be closed.
Cancer, he said, is called Dermatofibrosarcoma Protuberans, or DFSP, a soft tissue sarcoma that develops in deep layers of the skin. He first noticed the growth at the end of the 201
3 season and said he had asked doctors about it then and at another time in the years to come as growth continued to increase. Each time, he said, he was told that growth was nothing to worry about.
Only when the team finally became more concerned about growth this offseason and sent him to an associated INOVA hospital did doctors consider it a serious health issue, he said. Then Williams went to a hospital in Chicago, where he was diagnosed with a cancer. In the middle of winter he undergoes surgery to remove it.
"We literally captured him within weeks of metastasis to my brain in my skull," said Williams, who added that the trial was "a scary thing to experience" and was told by a doctor to tell himself sort things out so he doesn't.
"Consider describing to your 9-year-old, 5-year-old father that he may not be here," Williams said. It's hard.
That's why Williams was angry enough to endure. He did not directly confirm suggestions made by friends and associates that he did not want to play for the Redskins again, but did not sound like someone who wanted to be with the team. He said none of the team visited him during his two-week hospital stay – he flew him to Chicago, but not back.
On Thursday night, the Redskins released a statement saying the team asked the NFL's Board of Directors to convene a joint committee with the NFL Players Association to review the medical records and medical care provided to Trent Williams. review under the Collective Bargaining NFL Collective Bargaining Agreement, which provides for independent third-party review of medical professionals in each NFL
"Red skins continue to prioritize the health and well-being of our players and staff. Because of health and privacy rules, we can't comment anymore at this time. "
Earlier, Williams was asked if
when asked if he trusted the organization, he said," No, there is no trust there. "
returned to the team on Tuesday afternoon, just before e. The NFL's trade deadline of 4:00 pm, when it was clear that he would not be transferred to another team – something he asked for on June 1. Given then, he can claim that he has fulfilled his obligations under his contract, which expires at the end of Season 2020, allowing him to become free
Williams failed a physical Wednesday morning when he failed to put a comfortable helmet on his head, saying he tried two helmets with no luck, adding that surgeons cut 30 percent of his scalp to remove tumor, and that some pain remains in both wound recovery procedures.
What has not been corrected is his connection to the only NFL team he has played in for nine seasons.
"There are some things that are hard to deal with if I'm just being completely honest with you," he said. "That's it."
"I can't say names to be honest. Everything is everything, ”he said later. "You can draw conclusions if you want."
Williams spoke for 18 minutes. He wore a white hat on his head and, as he smiled several times, the patting of his legs increased to the point that his body was shaking at times.
"I guess no one has taken the time to see what's going on there," he said, describing what he felt was the way the team doctors handled the questions he kept asking over the years for head growth. your. "Football was more important and it was more important to me. They told me it was a minor thing, so I didn't really question them. But, I mean, the lump continued to grow over the years, it was a concern, but there was no pain, and if many people to whom I put my career tell me, people tell me I'm fine [then] I'm fine. Here's how I looked at it. "
A Redskins spokesman said the team doctor would not comment at this time and the team would not make a statement.
Williams was asked several times if he would play for the Redskins again. The first time he said, "We'll see how things turn out with a helmet."
Pressed later, he replied.
"I love football," he said. "Football has done everything for me throughout my life. That's all I've ever known. … But I just feel that things can be done a lot better. Obviously, we have reached that point.
Williams also seemed disappointed with the fact that the Red Skins did not trade him. A person familiar with the situation said that team president Bruce Allen did not want to send a top franchise player to another team in response to Williams' arrest, believing that the accumulation of fines and lost checks on the game would eventually bring Williams back . He has already lost just over half his salary of $ 10.25 million this season and several of his signing bonuses. Alan changed that position two days before the trade deadline, but no deal was made.
"When you give them 48 hours to make a deal, it probably won't happen," he said. "I just felt it was made to embarrass me, so to speak. Try to feel like, "Nobody wants you. You're not good enough to trade. "I felt like this was the game, more than making me move."
Asked if he believed in Alan, Williams looked down at the floor.
"Next question," he said icily.
When asked about team owner Daniel Snyder, however, Williams said he still appreciated his friendship and seemed to separate him from Alan.
"It wasn't his fault." "Williams is not there in the training room. He is not there. He is not one to anyone. I had a very rare form of cancer; my dissatisfaction comes from how long it was kept and how neglected and how almost it cost me
Williams is currently disappointed that the team is not renegotiating his contract, especially since given that he has stood as a leader and one of the best left tackle in the league, complaining that his last two years are not guaranteed and that he is not sure he will look after the team, especially if he is injured.  "We haven't had the best history of how the medical things are handled here," Williams says of the Redskins, who have a large number of players who have gone into contagious reserve in recent seasons and have seen high-profile players as defenders of Alex Smith and Colt McCoy and Darius Gees undergoes complex injury recovery they.
However, Williams added that he did not ask for a new contract during his performance and indicated that he had lost so much faith in the team that I would not want to talk about renegotiating his deal anymore.
Williams said he was happy to see his teammates again and regretted that his detention could hurt the team, which is going through a 1-7 start and sees his former coach Jay Gruden – whom Williams said he "loves" – to be fired.
In the end, however, his greatest concern seemed to be the tumor that had been removed, the fact that he would have to have follow-up meetings every six months to make sure she would not return and the anger that was testing her was treated.
On Wednesday, he had to stand before some of the same doctors he said he did not respect as they examined him for his physical condition. The experience was not pleasant and his eyes became cold as he spoke.
"At least it was weird to say," he said. "It happened. This was something I didn't think I should do. "