AL-ROUGH CAMP, Syria – An American-born woman who once called on jihadists in America to "continue to drive and spill all their blood," says she "regrets anything" and believes she should she was given the option of returning to the United States with her young son.
"Everyone who believes in God believes that everyone deserves a second chance, no matter how harmful their sins were," says Hoda Mutana, 25, in a broad interview with NBC News from a refugee camp in Syria, where she and Her 2-year-old son Adam lives in a tent.
Mutana, who left his home in Alabama to join the Islamic State militant group in 201
"I want my son to be around my family, I want to go to school, I want to have a job and I want to have my own car. "
Mutana now claims that she rejects the extremist ideology that once launched so freely online but is facing a difficult battle to be allowed back in the US. And just moving around every day is a struggle," she says
She says that it is "difficult for her to get up in the morning" and, although she has been displaced by the larger Al-Hall refugee camp for her own safety, she is scared of retribution by what she calls the more radical women around herself.
She also claims she is afraid not to speak, saying that this could lead to her
"I risk my life doing these kinds of interviews," she says.
The Al-Rog camp, in the far northeast of the country, has about 500 foreign women traveling to Syria to live under ISIS and Located in a desert area about 30 minutes from the nearest town, the camp is basic but has a school and hospital provided by the United Nations.
The refugees are guarded by YPJ, a fully female Kurdish militia group that gained international recognition during the fight reshtu ISIS.
Earlier this year, President Donald Trump tweeted that he had instructed Secretary of State Mike Pompeo to refuse Mutana's re-entry into the U.S.
"Ms. Hoda Muthana is not a U.S. citizen and does not to be accepted in the United States, "Pompeo told NBC News earlier this year.
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"She is a terrorist," he added.
Although born in New Jersey and traveling to Syria with her US passport, the government claims that they should never have been considered a national in the first place because she was the daughter of a diplomat serving on the Yemen government under this time.
Children of foreign diplomats based in the United States are excluded from the right of nationality by birth.  Mutana's father Ahmed Ali Mutana originally came to the United States in 1990. When his diplomatic mission ended in 1994, his family was allowed to remain in the United States because of the civil war that devastated their homeland.
The family – Hoda has at least five children and the only one born in the US – moves to Alabama, where she lives until she escapes to join ISIS in 2014. The rest of her family are naturalized US citizens and remain in the US
Ahmed Ali Mutha is now suing the government on behalf of his daughter and grandson, claiming that his employment at the Yemen diplomatic service ended months before he was born.
Mutana's lawyer Charlie Smith told NBC News that the family did not want to comment, but said he had no doubt that she still needed to be considered a citizen despite the fact that she burned her passport in Syria .
"If you are issued a passport, you are a citizen," he said. "The only way citizenship can be revoked is through clear evidence in the proceedings."
"This has not happened. Twitter is not a production," he added.
If the legal claim is successful, Mutana will be free to return to the United States, where she has stated she is ready to face the judicial system.
"They can watch me 24 hours a day, I'll be fine with that," she said.
Following the collapse of ISIS, governments around the world have struggled with the challenge of what to do with their residents and citizens, who have traveled to Syria and Iraq and now want to return home.
Rafael Pantucci, a senior contributor to terrorism at London's RUSI think tank, said that while he did not agree with the withdrawal of citizenship, Western governments decided it was a "useful tool" and "will continue to do so" "
Following widespread criticism by European leaders against Turkey's invasion of Kurdish regions of northern Syria, President Recep Tayyip Erdogan has even threatened to release prisoners from ISIS and other refugees in Europe.
Pantucci believes Turkey will not do this as it would be "incredibly inflammatory".
But, he said, "really Western governments need to understand what they will do with them. People."
Shamima Begum, who left Britain to join ISIS in Syria, is currently appealing the decision of the British government to deprive her of her citizenship, claiming to have made her stateless. The UK ministers claim that she is not stateless because she holds Bangladeshi citizenship, although she has never visited that country.
During her stay in Syria, Begum gave birth to three children, all of whom have died.
And it is her son's health that makes Mutana come to life most.
"I'm afraid my son is here," she said. "We can't afford bottled water, so we have to drink tank water and … it causes stomach aches."
She said the vapors from nearby oil fields give her and her son a headache "every day. almost every hour. "
For his part, Mutana says he just wants to go home with his son.
"I want my son to be around my family, I want to go to school, I want to have a job and I want to have my own car," she said.